how?

As i dont have any class tomorrow,
i've decided to study at midnight..
until now..
it's 3:46am now,
feel like sleepy already actually..
kinda of lonely...
it is the most quiet moment..as everybody went to sleep already..
some might be not..
wonder what they are doing now other than study..
watching porn maybe?online game?
so enjoyable..i can't..at least until this friday..!
got two tests at this week..
one is at wednesday and friday for another one..
seriously,i paid a lot of effort inside the test...
as i said, this is my second year already..
i dont wanna waste it and feel like an asshole again..
finally i fulfilled my promise!
not the time to happy now...at least after the test,after i know my result..
you might be saying that im actually wasting my time to blog now..
but i dont know why?i just feel like want to blog now..

this friday i will be going back to Ipoh!
this is what i looking forward now other than my tests..
the reason why i feel like lonely is..
my friends already left from Ipoh by the time i come back..
they went to their uni,
start their new life,a new journey can be said..
last saturday i done a very wrong decision,
which was didnt manage to get to LCCT to send off my friends, Wei De and Lik Ye..
who both going to Sabah to further their study..
it wasn't too far away..at least still in Malaysia..(Even Voon is in S'pore now, but i didn't thought she was too far away as well! C= )
so i will lose two of my friends now..which they are mean a lot to me..not only them,but all of you..
i need friends in my life..seriously...i can't do anything without them..
everytime when i blame them for not joining me for travel is because i want them to be with me..
cz i know one day you all will leave me, to do what you looking for..
but its enough, cz i will have you inside my heart forever, the memories, the jokes, even quarrel?
Jiuh, Long and Min are the three who is being so good with me through these years..
Jiuh and Long will be going for working, which is at Klang and Port Dickson..
Min will continue his study at S'pore...
so..there's no more pasar malam when i go back at this friday aight??
no more sms or the event in fb about the futsal game already..

Seriously,i miss you guys already..
by here, i send my warmest blessing to you guys,
take care and be safe.
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friday

okay,it's friday tml!
suddenly got mood to blog before i get to bed..
hmm..im not goin back tml..
as i want to stay here to do my assignment,study or what..(hopefully i can do it!)
actually its quite a big seduce for me to go back..
if i go back tml,i can come back only at monday..as the fin class has cancelled!
sounds good huh?but i already scare to listen the word 'replacement' already..
holy shit!i got four out of five subjects need to replace!
some more the replacement class haven't finish yet!
and now i gotta prepare for another new replacement class..
so stupid huh!

well,im not really gonna spend my weekends with those assignments..
will go out to low yat to buy the CPL filter!
haha!finally i found it..!
i found it at the low yat fotokem shop..where the place i buy my DSLR!
i dont know why it is so hard to be found..i asked for so many shops already..they all were the fotokem shop as well..
some more Ipoh's fotokem is like shit!(jusco that one!)
the worker being quite no manners..he thought that i come to kacau them..
or he even look down at me..think that i like those kids who didnt serious with photograph..
did i look like?==
anyway,i dont see they have stock also..
plan to go low yat at saturday......!
morning for sure!
so that it wont be too crowd for the tortoise ktm..
after that,will go to Friday's and enjoy my lunch!
yea..all the things i'll do is just by myself..
i cant find anyone to accompany me..
as some of my friends are going back to their hometown..some are going to prepare for inti ball!
sooo..i don't want to be troublesome so much..the best way is to go alone!
do what i want!eat what i want!
it's been a long time i didn't taste one of my favourite Friday's!(remember Nando's is the all time favourite for me! C=)
some more i can go back early and to avoid the crowd starts at 3pm!

hmmm..that's all the plan!
anyone wants to join?
I'd be happy to see any of you!
call me huh!
haha..i actually don't expect anyone of you!
well,it's time to sleep!
good night!

futsal

here i am again!
okay,i decided to blog since i got no more class after 10am today..
some more i know that i would be lazy to blog at night,
and maybe i wont be around my room..
so...it's a good time to blog now huh??

well,i went back to Ipoh at last friday by yoyo bus..
the people who knows me should be suprise why i take yoyo..
the fare of the yoyo bus is much more expensive than other normal bus..
cz it is the bus company who serves for those passengers from KLIA..(and inti students sometimes.)
this was the 1st time i take this bus..as im not so familliar with this bus..i felt quite worry when i want to take bus from inti to KLIA..
dont ask me why im worry..cz this is me..
worry of whether got bus to go KLIA or not..(surely there must be some buses to go KLIA)..but im still worry..why?i said dont ask me already!
oh ya,and worry that whether i can find the yoyo bus counter or not..
hmmm,after i reached then only realized that i was stupid to worry so much.
the things go well,the counter was easy to find..the bus came and reach on time..even the bus spent three hours to reach Ipoh!(imagine how fast the driver drive the bus!)
after i reached Ipoh..i did something really stupid..
i asked the driver whether can drop me at medan gopeng or not..
i saw that he stared at me and knob his head..seems like he is angry or what..
i was thinking maybe he started to feel annoy after so many passengers asked him to drop them here and there..
NO! i was wrong!
when he drop me at medan gopeng then only i know what i did wrong..!
he is a chinese, and i just asked him by using malay.......
he spoke cantonese with a chinese passenger..
ahh!shit! sorryyy! i was thinking..!
sometimes im really weak to differentiate chinese and malay..
cz the outlook of the driver was quite like malay..
and since i took so many buses at pudu last time..i never saw a chinese driver..

saturday night,
i was playing futsal with friends..
its been a long time i didnt play football..
so i was like playing with my endless energy!
it feels so good to play with a bunch of friends..
making jokes and did stupid things when playing are the most happiest moment..
too bad Min was leave early as he brought his NEW GF!(hehe.didnt mean to promote your gf here.)
and she wanted to go back early..(damn!)
i was planning not to let him score in front of his gf..but failed huh!
anyway,im still enjoy the match very much.
and soon you guys will leave for the uni already..

i think i was thinking too much recently..
i felt tired already..really tired..
didn't mean that i can't concentrate at class..
improve a lot of focus at class already..
but outside the class is hard...
i felt better when i was at home(Ipoh).
that's why i felt that i don't want to stay at here...
the only way to thinking is do exercise..
but the court was fully booked..(damn 2!)

okay,due to the last few posts,
my friend asked me that,
whether i worry other people will look at my blog ont..
i actually wrote something bad there..
i tell you what,
i dont want to apologize here and i think i dont need to..
this is my blog,and that's the only way i could express myself..
nowadays i can't find a better one to dump my feeling..do ya understand?
yeah,you can just don't go to my blog anymore if you want.
i dont want to become one of the hypocrite in inti..
most of the people were wearing a mask when they walk out from their..
even they still wearing at their room..
i dont need a mask to protect myself,
when you see me,that's the real me.
screw the mask!

6,e6 & e7

hmm,it's been two weeks more i didn't update the blog!

don't feel weird,last time was more longer..

should feel happy cz im updating now! C=

okok..i know my blog doesn't like others so interesting.

but i didn't open to public actually..

i don't even tell others i got a blog, unless they exchange their blog with me..

so..i felt amazingly how others could find my blog!

is it my blog become so famous already??

i don't think so!

okay,i went to inti from three weeks ago(i think?)..

nothing much has change, except some of the fresh faces..

felt more lonely since some of the friends had moved to apartment(desa palma)

and some of them were waiting to transfer to aussie.

actually this didn't affect much for me,

im always alone in inti,

i mean, most of the time i walk alone to school,

eat alone,play squash alone or stay at room,of course alone!

well..i didn't mean to show how pathetic am i or what,

i just want to say that,it's really hard to find someone who you can really talk to in inti..

if you find that,yea..congratulations..

i also didn't mean that i don't have any friends in inti,well,i have many now..

most of them were good..

sometimes the conflict happens because we are come from different place,

we are just not used to it only..as the time goes on,i learnt how to be forbearing,

actually they have the same pattern!

Johor people got their style and the same goes to the people from KL or Seremban.

and sometimes you will know that which place they come from based on their outlook,talking style..so funny huh?

when i play squash recently,

i will remember the time i play with Kah Yan,

well,she's from Ipoh, and i just knew her from last semester..

and how great that she is from Ipoh also!

the first time i saw her was at the first lesson of squash..

she has a nice look actually,so i have a feeling to be friend with her..=.=

that time i heard that she was only speaking in english,

"oh damn!" i was thinking..

because i really scare of talking to this kind of girl..

then one of day,

i finally talk to her when she got no player to practise..

i teached her squash and asked her where she came from..

that's how i know her..!

why i talked about her?i don't know really..

it's not like i like her..i just have a special feeling with her!

and how to describe that feeling,i really got no idea..

anyway,like what she said,it's such a waste to know her at her last semester in inti.

she was studied AUP in inti and her course was finished and ready to go to US!

so i've decided to spend more time with her before she leaves!(why spend more time with her???)

last week i went back to Ipoh and since there were many ffk people in Ipoh,i tried to ask her out for movie..

two movies actually!how good..she just accompany me to watch the movies!

and the movies were Iron man 2 and Ip Man 2..

she never watch Ip Man before and just forced by me to watch..luckily she said it was nice!(yea,of course..everyone will say so!)

we watched the first movie at friday..guess what!Kar Kar was sitting beside me!we were watching the same movie at the same line!what a coincidence! C=

the second movie was at saturday!the second coincidence,we were sitting on the same seat which we watch iron man yesterday!really don't know what to say..haa!

actually we planned to go for banana boat ice cream after the movie..but that time was late and we decided to go next time!so...we'll meet again huh?

besides,she really collect the sand from Pulau Redang and give it to me..so happy when i receive it..

Thanks ah hoooo!C= i really appreciate it very much.. the letter really made me feel touch..

even though i didn't know you for so long..but you are a special friend of mine,

maybe you are the only girl(except Li Teng) in inti who can speaks cantonese with me,

that's why i felt familiar with you..

you treat me like an old friend i don't know why..ya..maybe that's just my opinion..

but i treat you like my old friend too.

maybe i keep complaining your house is too far,why i should buy you a racket..

but that's not true,i feel very happy when u agreed to go out with me for movie,

and i secretly planned to buy you a racket so that you can bring it and practise at US.

hope that we can still watch movie after three years huh?

anyway,please take good care! C=

Okay,tomorrow im gonna go to Johor!

to celebrate Wei Far's 21st birthday..

oh!im gonna be 21st next year!

i didnt ask for any celebration for the last few years..

but this time i ask for one!hehe

stop stop...its too soon to talk bout that..

anyway,Ka Kei..

i'm sorry that i can't go back for your birthday..

i know i've been a little rude from the message last time..

i really planned to go back at 4th Jun to celebrate your birthday at 5th..

but i don't know why u suddenly change to this saturday..

don't blame me okay?

wish you happy birthday in advance here, Ka Kei.

last day

well,tomorrow..hmmm..actually is today already,

its my last day in Ipoh!

so fast and yet i still not ready to go..

Penang trip?no..!it ends up with me staying home alone and playing computer everyday..

what the hell is going on?its my problem or what?

i didnt ask you to do anything like cut your balls or what..

just a travel, happy and full with joy..

what's the matter?
if can,i really dont wanna discuss this matter here,

i mean,i really feel boring with this topic already,
i'd rather you to tell me the problem instead of keep silent in front of me or act some shitty face in front of me..

sighs,yea i know sometimes im not a good friend...especially when i get angry,you all didnt being bad to me..this is what i most appreciated.

i really wanna be nice with you all,

you know sometimes i feel like the distance between you all are getting larger, which i dont want it happens.

Today,Ka Kei asked me to go yum cha!

hmm..actually we should have went from yesterday!

but unfortunately,it rained, so that it cancelled by her!

i was so excited about the yum cha,cz finally i can do the different thing already!

so bad..

anyway,we went today!

dont know why Min was not going..

and i purposely brought the camera for him..

but at the same time i want to practise my photography skill as well!

i really felt disappointed when i saw the photo taken by the other people was so beautiful!

i wonder how they take it!

i mean, the color, the angle..i really hope one day i can do it!

okay,actually we tried to take this photo and show clearly the LCD screen from the camera..

but it can't be done dont know why...

anyone can tell me?

actually this time was the first time i fetch by Ka Kei,which means the first time i saw her drive!

how's the driving skill?hmm..you should try it first before i tell you! =p

and then,suddenly rain heavily...

and Ka Kei not happy!

actually,we didnt chat much thing,

just some people's life and not suitable to tell you here.

And MOST IMPORTANTLY, she and Ken will be going to KL at next wednesday!

after that, they will go to Melaka as well,

shit!that's the place i hope to go also after i bought the camera..

see!that's another one again!

i dont know whether they are purposely or what...

anyway,Ken's party tonight..

and also Long's birthday suprise for tonight!

well,he wont see this blog,so its still suprise for him!

bless my day will be enjoyable!

so hard

hmm..suprisingly im blogging again!
well..i just blog when i got the mood to blog,
ok i admit that im lazy to blog even though i got that mood.
what to post today?
okay,i wonder why it is so hard to forget something..
i am a forgetful person,so easy to forget the things ask by my friends to do,so easy to forget the notes that i had memorized before..
but yesterday i saw the facebook,wow, XXXXXX is in a relationship with ...
i was like, what the hell, why the facebook show it to me?
and i think how come i care at the same time...?
its not like i still like her,just...i also dont know how to describe this feeling..
maybe i saw that fellow, is the type of guy i hate the most..
wonder why i lost to him!nvm,i cursed them long ago!(seriously,i didnt like her anymore!)

i actually wrote many things before im typing this..i just delete it because i dont think i should write it out..
okay now,i dont know what to write already,
this is why i seldom post new thing..
it's a rubbish post actually,
talking about the humanity..being hatred about something..
lol..

min asked me to for swim tml, like last week too!
but i didnt go for swimming actually,i played squash at the squash court not far from the pool..
i rejected min..cz i dont feel like want to play squash tml..and he might throw me to wei de again to fetch me back! (it's a joke min! C=)
and i cant swim, as my trunks and goggle left in my inti's room!
no choice,im gonna sleep late tml and play pc game as usual..
i dont want to end my extended holiday in this way...
anyone please ask me out okay?
luckily there's a party at this saturday at ken's new house!
congratulation to him here!

off now.

when there is an end, there is another begin

Okay,i don't know whether still got people will come around here and watch,
cz i really have a long long time never post any thing here..
sorry,my bad, im lazy and little busy for the last semester.
i wont write what i've done for the past few months, then let's just start after the final since two weeks ago!

I bought a DSLR!so sudden right?i never say anything about photography for all the post i've been wrote..hmmm..let's forget about it why i suddenly got interest,just ask me in person ok?
actually now its been the end of my semester break,
dont like it because it is too short,
like it cz i think i've done many things for this break..
and this time,im gonna extend my holiday for another week! (without officially approve by my uni)
well,i dont care anymore, whatever what i said last time was bullshit,but now i really wanna study hard for the coming semester!cz..it's my second year of degree already!
dont wanna get my degree cert below the second upper honor..
try my best okay?

friends,
if you are watching,
ask me out,
even now you tell me let's go to Penang tml!
i would love to.
and let's photograph our life!