regrets and dreams

well,i just get my laptop fixed,
the bad news is all the files are gone..
guess what i've done?
hahh..i wont tell you..even though u beg me!
anyway,that's not what i want to talk about in this post..!

regrets,
everyone has it?
really?
you?
hmm..i believe so...
i've got too many things to regret in my life..seriously,no cheat.
just like what i've done to my laptop is one of the examples~
things in my life that are so important for me are my family, friends and lover.
well,i have to say i dont have lover now(yes i have some for the past dude,but screw it!)
i dont have any regrets for my family,i love them and try to spend most of my lifetime to be with them..
you may say that im still a child or what,
but i tell you what, i love my family more than hundred thousand times than you.
friends?i believe i treat most of them well..(anyone i treated you not well?)
if one day i didn't treat you like last time,that's when i don't care about you anymore.
and i think some of you won't even care bout that..as i think im not that important for some of you..

hmmmm..not even main part yet!
Once a Scout, always a Scout
last saturday,my friends were receiving their king scout's cert..
which included all the signs from each state of the sultan..
that sounds like kinda cool huh?
whatever..im not the part of who receiving the cert..
when i was 17, that is when i want to take the king scout's exam..
but it all screwed up because of me..
i was too lazy and not even motivated to do the log books..
that was the time im sick of doing these log books..
need to copy and draw for 100 something pages..
that's it..the problem is not even one book only, but almost like 7 or 8 books..
and also some other books which is like 40 pages...
so boring after i've been doing and doing..
actually i wanted to finish it..but not so soon..
before i attend the king scout camp, i need to attend one more which called "Ketua Petrol Kem"
that's the one who screwed me badly!
it was like a week before this camp,
i planned to do it at next week and before that there was a log book checking at the Perak headquarter..and i've been told that i wont be able to attend that camp if you didn't pass all you books by today..
i actually can rush it all for two days(i think?) and try to submit it again..but i didn't!!
i really don't know why..i must admit that my intention to go for king scout camp was weak..
that's why im not even want to rush it..
so stupid huh??now i cant even go back already!satisfy?
i hope that movie "17 again" would happen on me now!
whatever..nothing would work no matter i show how regret am i now..
maybe next time the time machine is invented,
i'll go back to the past and kick myself badly or even kidnap myself to a place that i can rush my log books!HAHAHA
anyway, congratulations to you guys who get the cert!
with the full of my sincerity.

today,
i met the black guy again!
yes i played football today..
and sure he saw me!
haha..he's inviting me again to join the team~
actually he was asking me to join at last semester..
i was like, okay!i will,that's what i loved to do..why not?
so i promised him to join at this semester..
eventually, i did not..im the only one chinese is one of the reasons..
secondly,it's tough..maybe?i might not be having too much free time after i join..
yea, the training time is only at monday, wednesday and friday..from 6pm to 7 something until you really can't see anything which is darker than them..HAHA!no offence~
the thing i worried the most is my study of course.
since now im not study also even i got free time..plus if this semester im not getting any A for the subjects...that means i need to work extra hard for the next semester..ahhh..life is so hard~
okay..i promised him this time..for the real..
i guess he will mad at me if im still not going for the training..
some more i might be the first chinese in inti's team!
haha!i might be the legendary chinese in inti~~
*slap stop dreaming okay!its too much too soon now..

one more,
the windows live messenger essential is really a suck version!
it erase my name and make to chin siang ong at first..
after i changed and it ends up with chin..
WTH!im gonna uninstall you and install again the old one!
however, this version is still a beta version..hope that it will improve for the official version!

and..and one more!
is there water cut tomorrow in inti??
why there isn't a notice but the desa palma resident's receive it??
i already store some water as the backup!
smart me huh?
everybody can think of it!smartass! :S

that's it,
good night.

ps:i don't have any class tomorrowww~yahooooooo~~~

hmm hmmm hmm

I went back to Ipoh for another weekend!
due to last weekend im sick..sick badly!
so i do not enjoy much..and that's why i went back again!
okay,there's nothing much to blog..
im here to declare IM FULLY RECOVER alreadyyyyy!
hahaha.seriously i really feel happy..not because of i already recover..
and also because i done most of the assignments!
the hardest one i already submit!
i really really really X 10000000 hate that assignment!
its a simulation assignment..
i duno how to explain at here..
its like u need to use a software called 'Simul8' which for us to simulate the restaurant, photocopy shop and even airport or any kind of counter..
then we need to calculate its mean,max and min point, standard deviation and finally the histogram..
we will use these data to do a model in that software..
hmm..it is really complicated..i wonder why a finance student need to study this kind of subject..

anyway, let's talk my friends..
they all seem to have a new life already..
i know that by looking at the photos they uploaded at the facebook...
facebook is a very good social website for us to connect with people..that's true..
i saw the photos of the new uni from my friends..
complains about their accomodation..and the lecturers being lazy..
excited about their first class and whether got leng lui in their class ont..(for guys only..)
trying to adapt to their new environment..or searching any friend which is same secondary school last time..and...whatever...
it seems so familiar to me..
that's all what i done before..when i first study in inti..
hmm..looking forward to visit min in s'pore!
but i cant go until dec..
let's see how it goes...

okay..gotta off now!
have to go back to inti tml..shit place..
nights.

how?

As i dont have any class tomorrow,
i've decided to study at midnight..
until now..
it's 3:46am now,
feel like sleepy already actually..
kinda of lonely...
it is the most quiet moment..as everybody went to sleep already..
some might be not..
wonder what they are doing now other than study..
watching porn maybe?online game?
so enjoyable..i can't..at least until this friday..!
got two tests at this week..
one is at wednesday and friday for another one..
seriously,i paid a lot of effort inside the test...
as i said, this is my second year already..
i dont wanna waste it and feel like an asshole again..
finally i fulfilled my promise!
not the time to happy now...at least after the test,after i know my result..
you might be saying that im actually wasting my time to blog now..
but i dont know why?i just feel like want to blog now..

this friday i will be going back to Ipoh!
this is what i looking forward now other than my tests..
the reason why i feel like lonely is..
my friends already left from Ipoh by the time i come back..
they went to their uni,
start their new life,a new journey can be said..
last saturday i done a very wrong decision,
which was didnt manage to get to LCCT to send off my friends, Wei De and Lik Ye..
who both going to Sabah to further their study..
it wasn't too far away..at least still in Malaysia..(Even Voon is in S'pore now, but i didn't thought she was too far away as well! C= )
so i will lose two of my friends now..which they are mean a lot to me..not only them,but all of you..
i need friends in my life..seriously...i can't do anything without them..
everytime when i blame them for not joining me for travel is because i want them to be with me..
cz i know one day you all will leave me, to do what you looking for..
but its enough, cz i will have you inside my heart forever, the memories, the jokes, even quarrel?
Jiuh, Long and Min are the three who is being so good with me through these years..
Jiuh and Long will be going for working, which is at Klang and Port Dickson..
Min will continue his study at S'pore...
so..there's no more pasar malam when i go back at this friday aight??
no more sms or the event in fb about the futsal game already..

Seriously,i miss you guys already..
by here, i send my warmest blessing to you guys,
take care and be safe.
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